sad sad week....

results are undesirable, totally did not meet my own targets for some subjects. espcially for history.... was really expecting alot more from myself cause i really really studied for it. ah well, came out with superbly ridiculous average results, SO SO SO MAD with myself.

but i think i really did well for emath p2. then again, as i was getting 87, people out there are getting 99 marks. when i look at my 87, it really aint that fab after all. i think being in my class is a real real challenge and, to a certain extent, it really sucks. cause when u finally think u do well, reality punches u hard in the face and tell you you constantly are inferior to someone. (this really sucks at times when you need some encouragement to keep yourself going) wonder if it was a mistake, letting my parents decide what subject comb i wanted.

i know i need to keep positive, im trying, but i dont think its working. im discouraged, so greatly discouraged. lost my motivation, my drive. barely holding on, trying my best to keep myself going but its hard. the fall is never easy.

trying ever so hard to keep my mind off things.
is it true?

im anitFB, proGG.


lazy saturday...i bet almost 90% of the rest of singapore's poulation of sec 4 students were muggin away while i watched Fringe season 2.


had a real damn big urge to watch top gear or heroes. but unfortunately, both shows ran out of episodes and i have nothing to watch.


and fringe is actually quite cool. i didnt really enjoy season 1, so i didnt watch it. but season 2 e1 is quite ok. reminds me a little of heroes, with the whole human shape shifter thing. cool but freaky at the same time.



today i adopted a cat!!!! black and white.... so adorable!!!! photos ahead!

gossip girl has taught me well.

wooo.... blogger is back, proper!

prelims pretty much screwed. chem, phy fail la. dunnid say one la.

this morning left my house and didnt tie my shoelaces.
wanted to save time by tying them in the lift
after tying the left shoelace, wanted to tie right shoelace. and then i realised it was tied already.
either no 1. something unexplainable happened
or no 2. i have a damn short memory
i choose to believe the latter.

life sucks. nothing interesting happening of late cause we're all studying hard. mugging. prelims. o levels. whatever. hate this period of time. cant wait to get o levels over and done with.

watching gossip girl now. found out i kinda got the wrong impression of season 2 from episode 1. thought dan became a bad guy, but turns out, hes still quite nice. and nate is.... ew. forget it, dont wanna talk bout it.

when i see you, i just wanna gouge out your eye balls, smash em to bits with my feet and feed them to dogs. i wanna take a scissors and rip out your hair, and splash concentrated acid on your face till you cry and beg me for mercy. then i wanna attach a tube to your mouth and flow fats into your stomach so that you can never ever look in the mirror and tell yourself you are good looking ever again. because truth is, you're not.just that you keep lying to yourself you are and no one really has the heart to tell you so.WHOEVER TOLD YOU YOU WERE SUPERIOR OVER US? BITCH, LOOK AT THIS. I AM GOING TO PROVE TO YOU I CAN HAVE WHAT YOU CANNOT HAVE. AND HAVE FUN CRYING ABOUT IT.

cant believe im posting.
just finished studying SS. damn late. hope i can wake up on time tmr morn man.
gd luck man!

love the effect of this picture

scars will hurt again.

today had chinese lesson. was nodding my head along even though i didnt understand like half of what teacher was saying.

todays idol was terrible. think the singing was pretty horrid. only one who impressed me was the girl who sang the duffy song. not bad.

blah blah. jus played bumper stars with louiza.
own-ed badly.
i win first 2 games, and she wins subsequent 3.
BLEH. DON WAN PLAY LE.....

gonna sleep now. bye ppl!

somethings cannot be undone.
jus hope the situation can be compromised.

today, is a DAMN SLACK day.

here in summary is what i did today.

woke up
made breakfast
burned tablecloth on accident
watched tv
walked around house
tried to find something to do
couldnt find anything to do
so,
did 1 hr of math
cycled to labrador park
almost got knocked down by car on the way
almost fell into the sea at pier
tried to waste as much time as possible talking crap with dad
enjoyed LOVELY LOVELY sea breeze for half an hr
cycled home from labrador park
told my neighbour to complain to HDB cause water was stagnant in the corridor
i was joking. no one laughed.
helped out with dinner
ate dinner
watched more tv
now, blogging.
3 seconds ago, dad nagged at me. say im using com for too long.
k fineeeee.... i'll go now then..

BYE PPL!!!

cute, right?

another week gone, so fast!
todays prelims was pretty ok i suppose. quite confident of my essay, hope i live up to my own expectations....

been watching lotsa MTVs of late.
i think mariah carey's mtv are..... abstract. she tries to convey a story, which i absolutely do not comprehend, through her song. take "obsessed" for example, shes using the song to suan eminem. dont really get it.... and Halo, in the last 1 min or so, its just the head of her and the male lead real close and noses occassionally rubbing each others faces. um, weird. totally no comprehension.

kelly clarkson has, put it this way, an exceptional taste. the male lead in the song "i do not hook up" really makes NO ONE want to hook up with him. yet, hes still the male lead and kelly clarkson actually kisses him for like a few seconds or so. that was just in the MV. can you imagine how many times they actually kissed in the filming process? ewwwwwwww.... go check out the vid to see what i mean.

aw man. i jsut watched the script's "the man who cant be moved", i thought the girl would come to look for him. BUT NOOOO....... aw man, that sucks. to have such a devoted guy, but the girl doesnt show up. man, i feel so sorry for him. but nice vid. (:

BUT BUT BUT. THE VID THAT WINS HANDS DOWN IS.......*drumroll*
PINK- PLEASE DONT LEAVE ME

isnt exactly an mv that i saw, za introed me to wach it. freakin mtv, freky but nice at the same time. suitable for sadistic people. pls go watch it if u see this, i assure you it wont be a waste of 4 mins of ur time.even if u don like the song, jus take it as entertainment.

k, i've finished my milk tea. time to go off now.maybe i'll post tomorrow or something. so weird, i had a craving for milk tea tonight and then za came and talked to me bout chocolate so i had toblerone cravign too. all louiza's fault. k its flate. time to sleep now! sch tmr!
cya ppl!